the bdsm / fantasy mmorpg pt 1

a random note i wrote about the three different phases of the game
over at my collarme profile (where i don’t look very hard for a submissive or slave to be a charcter and story/audio/motion model for the game) www.collarme.com/demiurge
took the day off of collarme.. well for me at least
had to do some updating of engine research
every virtual world or video game runs on what is called a “game engine”

regardless of what you are trying to build, there are always a lot of options as far as game engines

game engines are different than regular engines such as plane or rocket engines
or car engines for that matter

a game engine is more ..
the engine of a car as well as the frame, body, and many other design elements

a typical virtual reality, or video game consists of a bunch of things
but if we consider only a multiplayer virtual reality, then you are basically (from a programming point of view) talking about an mmorpg

the matrix would be considered an mmorpg
although the number of humans to artificial characters was probably very high

 

(keep in mind, however, that all animals in the matrix are virtual ones as only humans were plugged in)

the virtual world seen in the television series “Caprica” is an mmorpg
even the Holodeck in Star Trek is a form of MMORPG
(wouldnt it be awesome if people on different starships participated in one holodeck game)

there is a coming intersection between film and video games
roger ebert even to his death claimed that they
were not yet an artform the same way that films are

what exactly is a virtual reality?
think of a detailed video game world that has the aim of simulating reality itself
it can be of any size, but the size i have been planning for the last nine years (and preproducing for the last 6 years) is universe sized

there is a framework for universe simulation
that is capable (with my team’s help) of displaying a movie quality
interactive virtual reality that is literally the size of the universe

it is not based on video game technology, nevertheless it can be
adapted into a game engine.. one capable of rendering down to the size of molecules
(definitely useful if any of your characters have supervision)

i am working on a  contract to adapt the technology to my purposes
and at the same time i am aware that it will take even me and my team SOME time to make everything in it movie quality

in the meantime i have to make ANOTHER mmorpg, one that has a much smaller scope (say ten times the size of the next largest mmorpg? say planet sized or continent sized in realistic measurement, not videogame distance short hand)

that will take half the time of development of the universe sized engine
so were talking a year to 18 months

im getting tired of waiting waiting waiting
now that all the technology bits have been arranged

 

i feel as if its time to give up on the idea of finding my sub or slave
and having some of those real world influences affect the design

i think george lucas has really taught those micromanaging creatives like me
“that its always best to have more than one mind make a universe”
if i wait any longer computer graphics will be at a point that even someone like me would need millions of dollars to do anything

its cost a lot so far. around  5 – $600,000 in lost wages, around $100,000 in lost on-the-side consulting fees, and a few thousand hours so far. nevertheless, i am ahead of schedule and with the last year of development, potentially saved myself around 1.5 million in the long run

that means i won’t need outside investment for quite some time. as a first time game developer, that’s a godsend. ive been lucky enough to get lots of support form peopel in the industry as well as other creatives (like the maker of “Urotsukidoji: Legend of The Overfiend“)

i have several limits related to honesty
and all the “successful” ways to be on a social networking site go against them

in real life i have a stern and extremely strict “worst foot forward” policy
i feel that if someone is able to love you at your worst
from the first
then they will eb able to love you at your worst for all time
not an excuse to be your worst everyday
but its good to know
good to explore and test
devotion
i want someone devoted to me not only on my best days
but my worst

that whole philosophy doesnt translate well to the online
where all your body language, heat, chemistry, attractiveness and subtle intellect or intensity

are invisible

ultimately the whole point is this
if someone is able to OWN another human
first and foremost they should be as close to free as possible
you are a slave serving their pleasure but do they serve their own?

darkest most powerful dominant villain in fiction?
bugs bunny

no snake dripping acid going against the gods of norse olden tymes
for bugs bunny
nope no sir

another good one?
man with no name
(clint eastwood flicks)
both of these characters, like almost every good villain you could think of
they were serving themselves
and thus lousy dominants
because their effort will and energy though plenty
would never be focused on devouring the all
of a person

drives me nuts that i cant figure out a way to hoenstly
and without hiding any of myself

.. do whatever it is that i do in reality in person
i dont do anything
i see dreamers and i
find myself speaking before i notice it
and the next thing i know i am being drawn
into their heat
and slowly over time
their dreams
flash in the corner of my eye
until i am there
inside them with that version of themselves
they are in dream
struggling against that wild hunger
free to come out and roam me
i find myself driving deeper
holding tighter
buffering against hunger
by feeding it my own beast
less a coaxing than a combat
less an embrace than a defense
an aggressive exploration
of the taste of them with that new tongue
that sixth sense of them
that comes out when the part of me that is in their dream
is wearing my flesh

as i talk to programmers i think
how will i translate these things to math?

a smaller much smaller game
must be done in order to get the style and sense and art and content fo the world out there

sort of
imagine
call of duty or halo one of those games
but very very realistic .. well i guess they are all realistic nowadays
but with all the fantasy characters and magicks
and vampires and myth monsters
all of it

mixed together
and tossed together into a sort of goldeneye world
of scenarios
of course some story arc

but ogres goblins modern world
subways cars guns
a combat professional gaming twitch thing
with dark fantasy and bdsm monsters
and bdsm in general
not all guns and such
some tentacles some consensual non consent (well when you play this game you can expect you might be raped, like those games you expect you might be shot)

there are ways to opt out of that content, just like there are ways to opt out of excess blood and gore in a  first person shooter

THAT.. i can deliver in 6-8 months. but thats a sort of annoyance. because i was planning on doing the math of the sex last, and use observations of recorded bdsm sessions to derive the math (much like other math is derived from kung fu flicks and pen and paper role playing game books)

not only will i have to use my own imagination and less detailed observations to derive the exact math of exchanges of energy, intensity, pleasure and pain, but i have to have those mechanics done to be able to fit into a twitch style FPS game.

theres also the prickly knwoing that a game designed for a male female split is still an issue in a gaming community that is majority male.. artificial characters abound aplenty for these issues, however

and then again.. withotu  real slave.. the audio must be rehearsed, the motions nd movements, the characvters themselves must all eb fake

and thats teh part i had wanted most to avoid
in my past ive never had to compromise on anything
so to be honest i didnt mind spendign that tiem and money whilei waited for a slave who woudl make an awesoem video game character
or for a stopry that would make for an awesome video game

see the world creation for me is the easy part, though ti may be difficult
stories i find that life provides them best. each submissive and slave is different so the whole thing is..

to me each person is so unique.. a person that wants to be owned, to be a slave or property of someone else. you can shape them into so many characters, you can roleplay those at home for days or weeks at a time if you want..and you can daydream about them and their world like they did to get the film fifth element

as an artist i am certain beyond any doubt, that no matter how amazing i was… whatever world i make by myself as a dominant.. is only going to be 1/3 .. at best.. as good as it could be if a submissive or slave helped fill the imaginary parts of that art with her life, her spunk, her lust, her sounds.. her in general

a slave you can control and shape and mold in such a way that in effect they are merged with that whole art.. part of it an example of it in a medium connected to but different from the virtual world

mostly i am curious to see the effect.. of fans i am already familiar with.. of a game where you can have sex.. and fans of a slave or submissive (which i am already familiar with) .. but combined… will they support the game because they want to see her naked in it? or will they become fans of her as a model because they know they will be able to fuck her in a videogame soon?

researching all the laws was funny. i just wanted to be certain because centaur human sex or wolfman human sex … ya never know when it comes to laws.. so i checked which states it was legal to film what and which states it was legal to sell what stuff you filmed elsewhere

i haev no ideas what laws affect video games.. is it liek the same ones that cover graphic novels? where and in what areas are dolcette comics allowed to be sold or not?

it can all be so very confusing. luckily secodn life and other games have set some bars. but .. well (uh oh small break here)

see marquis de sade was a lousy sensualist and a lousy lousy sadist
from my point fo view
this much is as clear as the fact that nietzche led a very enfeebled life

what si clear though is that they were both intellectual rebels and at great personal financial cost they advanced their ideas with their time nand effort
for the sake of .. just teh art of life itself
to be frank

in any event.. im pushign all the envelopes includign the ones i cant push in real life
no pedo
and thats it.. no short kid sized anythign in the game and no children just to make sure that screenshots willnto be used in the wrong way
other than that.. every fetish ive ever seen
anywhere that i can figure out hwo to program and simulate the interaction of
will eb in the game

when i release it ill make sure nobody even knwos where teh helli am
just in case

i had teh need to push that envelope
and then i was voted by the fans
to only .. in my personal life
accept as submissives peopel that are already in the lifestyle

no problem i thought
ill just start dating collarme folks only

that was six years of hell ago
i elearned a lot
a lot a lot

and i became beyond driven to finish this game
im on the llast year
strategically
that i can push off production
whieli wait to find a slave model muse
object trophhy
or whatever else

subject

you call a person whom i plan to take through every singel fetish they will let me
and document every twitch sigh moan
for reuse in a totall y
seperate video game

easy as pie to hide their idenity if they choose
but those sighs whether digitized and edited
or crystal clear original audio
the sound of

its complex of course
just like actreses in films
that use body doubles
i guess depending on the sub or slave
ill have to use alternates
for the watersports or the fire play scenes
and of course the basics
like in any video game all those different intense scenes

a game based more on film than other video games
means the acting and scenes are similar to film
slow.. detailed..
than a game

technically this is as far from a game as porno is from
unforgivable monica bellucci
irreversible
whatevr the heck that film was called

at the end of the day the game will only be available online by credit card and i have no idea yet which countries i will host the servers in

end of story

luckily for me.. fairies were originally TALL (the church edited books and tales to shorten them to reduce the number of sex tales about their interactions with humans) “Much of the folklore about fairies revolves around protection from their malice. Although in modern culture they are often depicted as young, sometimes winged, humanoids of small stature, they originally were depicted quite differently: tall, radiant, angelic beings or short, wizened trolls being two of the commonly mentioned forms.”

i know.. i know.. wikipedia is not a valid source (i admit i stopped checking references after i wrote that biography of jesus and literally destroyed it and the notes)

and the artist Toshio Maeda himself directly
told me to tell you hes thrilled that im working on a game that has his film Urotsukidoji as a guide for content
and decency 😉

 

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